How strange is our life!

Some all they know is to live and forgive and others all they know is how to hate and take a revenge

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Some all they know is to hide and on the other side some just stay and fight

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Some always having a big smile inspite of being hurt deep inside and

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on the other hand Some always sad they don't even know how to laugh

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Some find it so easy to cry instead of giving it a try and on the other side

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Some don't even own the hope because it seems so far to go for but they create it after all

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Some people struggle just to be a live and on the other side others all they want is to die and be spirit in the sky

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How strange the life we live!

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Now I'm great I'm seeing light up there .Now I see an end to my road and I know that my dream will come true.



My eyes look (your sun is about to come and your world will be full of fun).



And about the drops of my sweat now it is time to forget just remember the smile of my lips.



And you my feet I know that you used to run and I know that was hard but remember the great things you have done



So my heart beat your dream is about to be real and the whole world will see .

would you please help me?

Something is wrong I feel i'm totally lost so please my time would you stop for a while?


Do you know what I'm gonna do?


To the sea I will go and then I will take a boat and to him I will talk may be he would know what is bothering my soul



And you my road take me with you as far as you can go and promise that you won't let me a lone



Do you know what !at the sky i'm gonna look and then I will make a wish hoping that my lovely star will do it



The sea keeps whispering in my ears and the road is telling me what he thinks is the best for me



My road and my sea thanks for talking to me but now I believe that all I need is just a journey deep down me so would you please help me?

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Over the sand I will draw a heart so please my sea wave stay away and you my wind don't you dare

At this tree I will write the 1st letters of you and me so please my lovely tree keep them for me

I'm gonna ask the sky not to rain and over the clouds i will write your name

And you my beautiful sun i'm gonna ask you to come

And you my air travel away and to me come back again and all the time you whisper his name

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And you my love bird sing our song I wanna hear the music all along

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Sorry my moon i'm gonna forget you so please don't be mad because it is him all I need right now

sorry my eyes

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Sorry my eyes because you had to watch your love dying

I know that his lies to you really hurt you but remember that deep down you u knew that he was

playing games with you and even my heart beat you refused to believe

Ask the moon to stop crying and tell him that you are trying

I'm gonna take you in a ride to see all the birds flying taking thousands of miles leaving every thing behind

I want you to convince my mind that every thing he sees doesn't have to be real and there is something called decieve

I'm gonna ask the sun to come around for a while may be you will be reliefed when you see the light

I want you to know that what happened is not the end of the road consider or

what happened is a lesson to you and i promise i will be there for you

I remember you

I remember

the time I decided to give up on my dream because I was so tired and I didn't have the power to complete.


I remember

you holding my hand helping me to stand ,making me so determined to start all over again.


I remember

you talking to me making me realize how strong I can be just with believing in me.


I remember

you being the hope and the guide at this period of my life.


I remember

all these things you have done trying to wake me up. and


I remember

also how hard it was because I was some one who lost the hope some one who couldn't see the end of his road.


I remember

that you knew that I needed you without even me telling you.


Your are

so sweet ,you are an angel GOD sent you for me. You are giving me the



ideal thought

about how the friend should be. So please don't go away from me because you and me making


the best team.

My days finally decided

My tongue can't find the right words and my heart is beating so strong.

The sky is so bright there is no walls taking my light and the world is so quite.

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All my eyes can see is the dancing of the birds and the trees , even the sea I can see him watching me.

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My nose keeps smell that perfume and I'm so confused I don't know what to choose.

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the red or the white rose and I keep hearing that song of that happy sweet little girl.

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All the sadness disappeared and my smile finally decided to stay with me.

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They wanna know what is happening to me they all envy me.

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All I can say that my soul is so delighted and my days finally decided that it was enough and it is my time for making up.

crazy moments

I keep remember

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all the sad and the crazy moments I had.I can't keep them away from my mind I remember them every night.


Some times

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I blame my spirit which is buried and died and the only reason of its dying it is you my mind.


And other times

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I blame the circumstances who made me surrender to grief making every dream something impossible to be real.


Every night

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I go to sleep hoping not wake again and move to a better place. I hate the light and the dawn

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I don't wanna

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see them any more because they reminding me of what I was and how great is my loss.


I don't know

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if there is any words enough to tell how sad I had been since I got through this

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After I lost

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almost every thing starting with my self.I don't know if I have any thing

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left makeing me staying on this earth.

Do u have this one?

Do you have this one that you always tell him that he is a friend of yours and nothing can take


him from you.I know that is may be a true but I need a prove so I'm gonna ask you.


I know that every body has a secret deep down that he never talks about so the question is are you ready



to share it with him ?letting him get inside you and see the real of you knowing all about you.


Even if you did how do you know that he is not gonna judge you like any body else you know?


I'm so cofused and I know that I made you too i'm sorry but I still need an answer from you for the question I asked you.

the court of love

I'm gonna sued you

in the court of love because you stole my heart ?Here Iam in the court talking to you judge.

So Please listen to me and promise me to get back my heart.

I really don't know how can I live a life with no time because he is my whole time

How I suppose to

look at the sky and she is having no light .
How can I forget the one who taught me how to be a live

my judge he is the only

I have ever loved so I suppose to let go of my heart.He is the only friend I ever got so I suppose to trust no one.

Please my judge

don't tell me to give up or to forget his love because deep in my

heart i'm sure that walking away from him wouldn't be the right thing.

Because up there

in his heart there always have been a place for me even if he walked away from me.

If you gonna ask him any thing ask his heart to beat for my love and thanks my judge.

no thing changes

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Every morning

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I force my self to wake and I cheat on her and I tell her it is O.K.


I keep lying

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to her by saying that I changed ,today is a better day and yesterday had passed away.


Every night

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I force my self to sleep and I tell her that she is gonna have sweet dreams.


But it is all

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lying because I spend my whole night while I can't even close my eyes.


I spend my whole

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I have nothing

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to decide or even to talk about i'm sick of being silent all the time.


I'm feeling so

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empty deep inside .every thing is the same nothing changes and no body cares.

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still insist that I live a happy life because that is my life.

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Do you want me to tell you about yesterday and the reason why I looked this way?.

you didn't know what is with me so thanks GOD that you didn't judge me.

I found every body accusing me they were looking at me as I'm an evil thing moving on this earth.

Do you know the feeling of hoping to be died wishing absolutely nothing from your miserable life.

Please don't be mad at me yesterday that was me but today it's a new day so I'm gonna start all over again.

From now on I'm gonna do what ever I want caring about no one.

I'm gonna fight all the sadness and the tears because they are the only thing they gave me.

So no more wasting of times about asking and wondering I'm considering it as my chance to be a new one.

Do you know

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Do you know

how much time I spent thinking about you

Do you know

how much I hate being far from you

Do you know

that the word(I love you )is much less than the feeling I'm having for you

Do you know

what happened the first I saw you do you know that I got back my soul

Do you know

that I Looked at the moon and I found him so happy for seeing me with you

Do you know

that my lips smiling at you and my eyes looking at you without even asking me to

Do you know

that you are the one who is catching my tears and and making them disappear

Do you know

that the best thing between you and me that I know you and you know me

Do you know

that your influence in my life just like the darkness when it is beaten by light

look at this sweet little girl

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What is with you the silence is all over you as it is with you against all the people around you.


Your eyes are so confused they don't know what to do.
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They are saying a lot but you asked them to stop and not to say even a ward


Why you are acting as you made with sadness a loyalty contract and you are seeing grief as an ordinary thing.

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Look at this sweet little girl may be you would learn something.

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Why you are doing this all I'm asking you is to change.


The world is not that forest you keep telling me about you just imaging its existence around.




Look at the sky may be you will find my lovely star every time I was so sad I looked at her and she got my smile back.


Don't you miss the old of you? .Don't you wanna be the way you used to?.
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Please think about the things i'm telling you.

Tomorrow is a new start

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Tomorrow is the a new start for me so my fate what are you hiding for me

And you my days are you gonna make it up for me or for the 2nd timeyou are gonna hurt me?


This last year was a nightmare for me all my dreams got vanished and disappeard.


I don't want to regret or to feel sorry for my self that is why I keep reminding my self


that I have a long road to go and a big dream to make true even if I failed before.


Sorry my heart but please don't be mad at me because I decided to forget you for a while.

Because it is you who is gonna make me lose this time.

And you mind you are the one I need beside me because with you nothing stops me.

I wanna know why

I had been hurt and my heart is so sad and there no way to fix it or to get it back.


I hated him when he talked to me like that so i'm not gonna call him back.


I wanna know why he did this to me inspite he knew that was gonna hurt me.


I was talking to him about my dream the only wish I have ever had the only thing I needed so bad.


He just didn't care and it is not just that he made a fool of who Iam


I spent a lot of time trying so hard to find an excuse for him and the reason why for acting like he did.


But I just couldn't find it. I won't be able to forgive him for insulting me like this .

forgive my heart

Forgive my eyes

If one day they turned away from you or cried once infront of you even if they didn't mean to.

Forgive my smile

If one day she escaped and didn't stay even if her being shy was the reason why.

Forgive my soul

because she didn't listen to you and surrendered to grief which is ended by giving up on her dream.

Forgive my fingures

If they ever wrote a word without seeing you or a thought without thinking about you.

Forgive my heart

If one day he adoubted your love.

Forgive my hands

If they forgot to call to check on you even if they had an excuse.

Forgive my ears

If they missed one thing you said or didn't hear you well.

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forgive my tongue

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If one day he said some thing not appropriate to you or if he refused to talk in a time you needed him to

I'm gonna kill that love

I'm gonna kill that love who lives in the soul and the heart.


With this love i used to sit and regret every day i spent in this relationship.


So i will prevent my senses of feeling and
my eyes of seeing.


I will prevent my heart of beating and
my mind of dreaming.


I will prevent my soul of screaming and
my voice of weaping.


You my hands i'm telling you to stop writing to him and stop lying to your self.


Letting go of your writing and giving up on your pencil it is all i'm asking.

I'm gonna kill that love to get my self out of that world of a fancy to the reality.


I'm gonna kill that love and bury it as it never existed.

depression

I didn't know what to choose or in which direction i should go .I was just some one who lost his home.


But by coming back to you* GOD* and asking you to help i got back my self


At this time i wanted to scream and cry.
i wanted to talk or even to die.


It was some kind of a deppression
I wasn't capable of making a decision.


In my entire life i didn't go through any thing like that where there was


no light to see or no air to breathe It was so hard on me,thanks GOD finally i'm relieved.

my soul is so sad away from u

Why can't you see what you are doing to me?.


your love is the only thing inside me that love who is taking me from me .


Why my lips can't smile to any one but you and
my soul is so sad away from you .


My tongue refuses to tell my words because of you and not even to the moon


who is becoming so jealous of you.because we used to be friends before i know you.


I know that there is no words enough for you and even if there is it won't be enough to tell you how much i love you.

my love bird

Where are you?

i'm so worry about you.I'm imaging my self talking to you

telling you

that you are the best friend i have ever got,
you are the soul of my heart.

My love bird

go and tell him that (away from him nothing comes to an end).
Tell him that every thing looks further and even much harder.

Tell him

that i remember him when he he used to listen to me before even i tell him what is wrong with me.

Tell him

it is okay it is alright that i got something he wouldn't mind and he will know what i'm talking about it.

what is fake and what is true

Your love made me crazy i don't know who iam any more.


Because of you i cant recognize what is fake and what is true.


You are the pulse in my heart you are running in my blood.


In the journey of my life you had been the hope and the guide at the same time.


If i have any reason to live for ,it would be you.


The 1st i saw you i found my soul with you.


One of my friends asked me about you so i opened my heart i told him ( do you see ?that is her home).

i hate you

I hate you(night)

because at first you are recieving me with your arms and you even call the moon for me and then

you surrender leaving me to the sun light which is hard on me.

I hate you (silence)

because you are making my words running from me when i need them to stand up for me.

I hate you (travelling)

because you are taking every thing i love away from me .

I hate you(dream)

because you are a fancy and with you i do what i can't do in the reality .

I hate you (pain)

i suffer because of you and you made me knew how weak iam infront of you .

my certificate of death

Sorry my heart

I'm gonna get you out of my chest writing my certificate of death.

Sorry my heart

I'm gonna take you to him to let him see how much you had been hurt.Let him see your bleeding and hear your screaming.

Sorry my heart

Day after day i couldn't close my eyes because of your crying.

Sorry my heart

I'm sick because of you because it is enough for you to have him in you letting him messing all around with your veins and arteries.

Sorry my lungs

but your heart refuses to give you blood.

Sorry my heart

I told you to stop but you could not but i made my mind up ,
now it is your time to leave saying goodbye to me .

i miss u when i'm with u

Imiss u when i'm with you so what i'm gonna do away from you.


I looked all over for you even at the surface of the moon and deep in my heart i found you.


You are the one who found my heart keys and you are the only thing deep inside me.


With your love i learned to live and forgive.
With you i saw love with its wide seas and i finally knew what it means.


From me you took the grief and the impossible dream that what you gave me.

u are every thing in my life

You are every thing in my life .
You are the innocence of my eyes.

You are the reason of the mind and
my whispering at night.

You are my flowers in the spring.
in the summer you are my wind.

When it is getting too cold you are
the sun and the warm

I can see it in your eyes (your believing in me and how proud you are of me).

(Your work is you, nothing more)these words are yours

and they taught me the way to try,the way to fight and how to stay away from hiding and running.

Your love taught me how to be happy and a live taking the advantage of every day of my life.