my luck star

Today when i was looking at the sky i found my luck star.

She said to me(u are gonna be happy someday and what makes u worried

what makes u afraid will go away.

What hurt u and what caused u pain will be terminate.

She said to me(u are gonna be different ,u are gonna be much stronger.

Don't say how or why it just goes this way.

sad and alone

Any time you feel sad and lonely come to me i'm gonna listen carefully to me because you are apart of me i'm not gonna describe you any thing less but me.

You are the most wonderfull person i have ever known

this the least thing i can do for you.

You have such aheart, such asoul ,and they way u think ,and things u said oh GOD u make me empressed.
You look at things from new spectrum, from adifferent sight of view.

Most of the times u are happy and satisified and u keep telling me that is what GOD. want ,that is GOD well ..it is rare when i see u sad or cry because u are tough,stronger more than u or even i can imagine.

You have strong believing more than any one i know.
You are such abeautiful person so i'm asking u any time day or night come to me.

And i promise u i'm gonna be agood listener i'm gonna be that friend you ever looked for at least i'm gonna do my best to be u again.

sadness

all i can see these days is seas of sadness and darkness day after day it becomes even more so i can't take it any more

i keep telling me that it is gonna be ok but deep in my heart i know that it is just abig lie ,big lie every body around believe except me

but how can i ??i feel so homeless i know that i have house but it is not what i'm looking for

i wanna ahome ,home is (aplace to feel safe and happy and nothing ever makes you worried

with all friends around i miss this feeling so much.these days i talk to no body because of them i act this way no body gets me

,or at least try to get me

i wanna know what happened ?what had been changed ?why they act this way

why no body believes in destiny and they every thing for them selves

يااغلى ماليا فى الدنيا ديا

مش هقول يااغلى ماكان عندى هقول يااغلى ماليا

صح بعدت عنى بس انت اغلى ماليا

وعارفة انك مش هترجع لى مرة تانية

معايا بروحك ودايما حواليا طول الوقت بفكر فيك

بتمنى ولو لحظة لقى نفسى تطمنى وتحسسنى

بامان مرة تانية فاكر كنت ازاى بتفهمنى من عينا

ماكنتش بحتاج حتى اتكلم كنت بتتكلم وتحس بيا

من قبل حتى مااحكيلك او اشكيلك باللى بيا

فاكر اد ايه كنت حنين عليا

كنت اقرب واغلى واعز حد عندى فى الدنيا ديا

الدنيا من بعدك بقت حاجة تانية حاجة مش قادرة اوصفها

ولا حتى اقول عليها

محتاجة منك اشارة تحسسنى انك معايا محتاجة تطمنى

انت وبس اللى ليا

يااه على صدقك وطيبتك ماشفتش حد كده ابدا

فى دنيتنا ديا كتير بكينا فراقك بس ياريت كانت الدموع

ابدا كفاية

2nd face of me

I do love you but not in the same way i used to .All you can do these days is pushing and pushing and even more pushinig.

I feel that i'm gonna explode because of you GOD forgive you.

You didn't even admit it ,you knew that i did my best

and there was nothing to do about it.

All i needed is you to give me your support but criticizing me and judging me all the time is last thing i needed you to do.

You don't like me for me i really started to adoubt it ,you are loving me for things,things that u know about not for my heart or my soul or even the way i do.

Be careful and watch out you are gonna see the 2nd face of me and you are not gonna like it .I promise you in the case you don't change i'm not gonna talk to you ever again i swear.

every day

Every day at the same time when sun shines

i get so scared so afraid aboslutely unsafe

But the weriedest thing about me that when night comes and sun goes away i feel safe again

I remember yesterday when i'm looking at today

For me they are the same nothing change

It reminds me that another day of my life had passed away

with no coming back ,without saying goodby

I need to do something to make this feeling goes away

Some thing different something new something i never did before

u are gonna be ok

baby i love u i'm so sorry for not being with

u i know that u need me so soon

i want u to know that i'm not gonna stop calling u

i'm not gonna stop sending u messages

to make u feel that i'm with u

but ther is nothing i can do there much distances ,and spaces keeping me away from u

it is tearing me apart , you are the best

friend i have ever got

but i keep telling my prayers

i keep asking and bagging GOD

i know that it is gonna be ok

you are gonna get through it

and get over it,because u are much stronger even more than u think

coincidence

DO u believe in coincidence?No i don't

I think that every thing happens it happens for areason.

When u( see someone die it happens to make u realize that u are gonna be a dead body someday inspite of being so much a live today).

When you get sick in certain time it happens to make you stop for a while and think about your life.

When you (meet someone on the internet GOD did that to give u the chance to meet toghether ,to know each other and be best friends forever).

When you meet someone and full in love with , it happened to be married to him and to spend the rest of your life with.

So do u still believe in coincidence?Tell me.

i can't forget this day

i can't forget about this day

it is in my heart ,it is in my mind

it is most wonderfull day of my life

the day he said to me(marry me because u are the one for me)he

told me that it was the honeset smile of his life

it was the most beautiful and clear smile in the eyes

he is the most wonderful guy i have

ever seen so GOD protect him for me

i love him i really do

if u want your destiny to be my destiny?
come to me be with me for the rest of my life

so can be happy for euternity

i didn't know what to say but all i know that my
heart ,my soul , every part of me said yes except my mind

because he is the only one who lives in the reality show
he is the only one who knows the truth
he is the only one who knows that it is

not gonna happen the marrier what we say
or the marrier what we do

GOD i love him i really do
i wish if i could tell him the truth

what are u gonna tell me

i needed you beside me and to be there for me i needed the friend i expected you to be.

every time i heard a ring of amobile or even a knock of a door i thought it would be you but u made me look like a fool

I can't wait to see what are u gonna tell me?what
excuse u are gonna give me?

when we see each other
and our eyes meet togheter.

you made me so disappoint ,so don't blame me because from now on it is not gonna be the same between you and me.

انسونى حرام كفاية

نفسى اقولهم انى انسان ليا روح وكيان
لـــــــــــيــــا مشاعر واحساس

نفسى اقولهم ارجوكم افهمونى
ولا الاحسن انسونى

انسوا انسان كسرتوه وكيانه هزتوه
انسان كل شئ حلو جواه ضيعتوه

انسان مش حاسس بالامان
انسان خلاص الخوف ملاه وعاش جواه

انسان كل شئ جواه قتلتوه وهو حى دفنتوه
انسان بسببكم تاه وسط الزحام
بقى عايش طول الوقت فى صراع

زمان كان بيعملكوا حساب
دلوقتى كل ده خلاص كان

بقى انسان كاره يشوفكم او حتى يسمعكم
منتظرين منه ايه ماخلاص
انسوه حرام كفاية اللى عملتوه

u are my best friend

Finally i'm ready to talk (so come to me
listen to me . I miss seeing you home like i never did before


Please stay with me, you
are the best friend i have ever seen

It took me along time to be ready and i did it just for you because i really care about you

I wish if you know how hard it was ( there had been so much fighting and struggling )

There had been so much running and hiding

I used to see confused eyes looking at me but they never known what is wrong with me

i'm finally ready thanks to you i really do like you.
so GOD bless you

i can"t even dream

Ican"t even remember the last time i had a dream
It had been along time since i wished for any thing

Even dreams ! ican"t have them but how can i?After every thing i ever dreamed of it didn"t come true


Not even once in my life i was even close from making it a true

My life become a nightmare. even my day is becoming a night there is no difference between the dark and the light

I don"t even know what i supposed to do

بقيت حد تانى

نفسى اتكلم بس مش قادرة جوايا حاجة بتمنعنى حاسة بحاجة بتخنقنى
حاسة فى حاجز بينى وبين نفسى بينى وبين اعز واغلى الناس عندى

اصبحت حد غامض حد صامت
حد مش قادر يسمع ولا يتكلم
حد كل شئ كان مؤمن بيه فقد ثقته فيه
و كل شئ جواه جميل بيموت مع كل ثانية بتفوت

حد اصبح انقاض انسان
حد القلب من جواه انكسر واحساسه انجرح
حد مابقاش عارف ايه النهاية ومنين البداية

حد بيدور على نفسه على امل انها فى يوم ترجعله على امل انها فى يوم تصارحه وترضى عنه
حد شايف الدنيا بنضارة سودة بالنسبة ليه كل

يوم زى اللى قبليه زى اللى بعديه مافيش ابدا جديد

i did what i did

الخاطرة الاولى

i did what i did after i hoped for it .i know that it didn't work but
at least i did my best so no regret


الخاطرة التانية

it is not too late to realize what is important in your life
so go for it ,try to find it and then u live for it

الخاطرة التالتة

when i'm so so sad so alone i think about one thing it's u. i don't know what u have been done to me but ( u are the one for me).the big price is to look at your eyes

what ever u do

i learned how to be tough
how to give up
i learned how to reject
how to forget
how to be someone else

because of you .i hate you i really do
what ever you say what ever you do i won't forgive u

i can't even hate u

u aren't gonna see any good in your life because u had been so un fair to me
no body ever treated me the way u did

my (heart and u broke it) ,(my feelings and u hurt them

for me love and i loved u ,feelings i felt u,even emotions i gave u

i will ever never forget about u and that is for one thing to remind my self

that no body deserve to be loved
that no body deserve to have my heart

because of u i'm not gonna be able to share my life with any one
i for me it is better to spend the rest of my life alone in stead of sharing it with some one like u

u will be the ghost who chasing me all the time
i can't even hate u


sometimes (when u hate some one it means that u still care) for me i don't care at all
for me i can't love u and i can't even hate u

i do love u but

you want me to tell you first that i'm in love with you , but it is not me, if you wanna me to tell you first
it means that you don't know me

i'm so shy even if you told me first i'm not gonna tell you back
but if you loved me enough u will know the answer by your self

you can see it in my eyes, u can see how much i worried about every time i'm away from you

for me being in love doesn't mean that u have to say it
for me it is enough to feel it

because it is easy to say ,but it is not easy to act,it is not easy to do,it is not easy to find the one for u

tell me that u feel me deep tell me that u can't live without me
because that is the way i feel about u

i can't forget the way he smiled

i wanna feel safe again i missed this feeling so much .iwanna go up there to be with him
to the place where i can feel him around
to the place where i can feel safe again

but where and how i'm gonna meet him .i have to die first so i can be with him
for me it is not enough to see him im my dreams
i wanna see him i wanna talk to him
i miss him so much oh GOD hurts it is death who is pulling us apart


i can't forget the way he smiled to me
i can't forget the way he looked at me as he was telling me goodbye as hewas taking his last breath

no body did love me nobody will love me the way he did he was so special

الترجمة

نفسى احس بالامان اد ايه مفتقدة الاحساس ده.

نفسى اروح هناك علشان اكون معاه للمكان اللى احس بيه حواليا للمكان اللى احس فيه بالامان مرة تانية.

بس فين وازاى هقدر اقابله لازم اموت الاول علشان اكون معاه

بالنسبة ليا مش كفاية ابدا انى اشوفه فى احلامى نفسى اشوفه نفسى اتكلم معاه

ياااااه لو اقدر اقول اد ايه مفتقداه ياربى احساس صعب اوى احساس بيألم اوى

الموت هو الشئ الوحيد اللى فرقنا.

مش قادرة انسى ازاى كان بيبتسملى

مش قادرة انسى ازاى كان بيبصلىوقت ماكان بياخد النفس الاخير وكأنه بيقولى وداع

مافيش حد حبنى ولا حد هيحبنى زى ماهو حبنى اد ايه كان مميز.