i'm in a middle of a fight

i 'm in the middle of the fight between
my heart and between my mind

my mind is telling me(do what it ever it takes to get him back)

but my heart is telling me (stay away form him
don't even say award to him he is not the one for you

and you know it he thinks that you can't live without him
and that is why he is doing this

oh GOD i'm so confused but i know what i'm gonna do
i'm gonna leave him he is not the one for me

i deserve better than this im gonna do what is my heart
telling me because i trust him

i'm crazy about you

I keep hearing that voice telling me that i'm crazy about you.
My days had a dream about u i finally found you.


What ever i say about your love i would be so unfair to love
because i loved u even more than love.


Being in love with u made me ready to lend my hand.
Being in love with u made me ready to share my heart.


You are my only star in my love sky.

so much walls

I finally realized that there is no hopes and dreams.

And the black (representing my life)
is much stronger than white.


My heart i'm telling you to sleep and you
my mind stop thinking,shut up and go to sleep.


I don't wanna hear your voice ever again telling
me to wake up and have a dream.


What is use of waking after my dream had been
murdered and disappeared.


There had been so much walls (walls) blocked the sun and even the moon there is no light any more.


So shut up my mind ( talk and say what ever you say)i'm not gonna listen to you.

if u opened my heart

If u looked at my blood you will see your love.


If you opened my heart you would find white pages
and what is all written up there is your name.


If you looked for the difference betweem me and the others u will see
that people only see one moon but for me i got 2.


One in the sky and the other one is you.
If u looked for the difference between u and the moon


You will see it only at night
but i see u day or night.


If you looked at the difference between me and the others
you will see that in their sky they see all the stars but me you are the only star that enlighting my dark sky.

with my tears i draw your love

I started my life with you.
I can't live without you.


My heart is so in love with you.
I'm stranger with no home away from you.


I wrote your name with my blood.
With my tears i draw your love.


I'm writing your love story over the clouds for the people around.
I'm telling it to the birds to the trees even to the sea.


I made the impossible because of you
because u always motivated me u always had been there for me.

every body left me

i wish if i can find some for me
someone close to me after every body left me

i tried to belong to many places
pretending that that i'm gonna find the home i need

i keep seeing laughing faces and smiling lips
pretending that they like me

but deep in there heart there is
no place for some one like me

there are so much people around me
but lucky me no one for me

so what i supposed to do
i just stop looking for such a place

or just surrender and believe
to be unhappy is what i'm supposed to be

please pray for me who ever read this
wishing me to be happy some day

who are you?

When i'm crying i can't see any thing but you.
When i miss my soul i wish nothing but you.

When my heart beats he is beating for you.
When i feel fear i ask no body but you
so who are you?

Between the heart and mind (it is you
Between the reality and fancy (it is you
it is you so tell me who are you?

Between minute and other i just loved you.
Between asecond and another i miss you
you and no body but you so who are you?

my life was a smile

My life was a smile , now it is a tear and it is in her way to disappear.

My tears are trying but my memories remain they are gonna stay.


I know that my whispers are worrying you
and my words they are making you so confused.


I know that you are waiting for them
and you are the first to read them.

Now you came back to me but why.?

I made my decision to forget you and every thing about you
our story is over along ago.


I'm gonna say it again you were my smile and you just abondand me
now you are my tear but she is gonna disappear don't make it a big deal.

why???????

Tell me

why i'm lost when i'm not with you?

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Tell me

why my days are dying without you?why my dreams become nightmares away from you?

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Tell me

Why i like being astar enlightinning your sky?

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Tell me

Why your love is a sea with no ending or even start?why your love is a cancer in my heart?

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Tell me Why

I'm having that feeling that your love is a human being

Tell my why

I feel that what between you and me is so much to be real

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Tell me why

I hear you when you are not here with me distances away from me

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as there is great a connection between you and me

what life is all about

what life is all about
i keep asking me but she doesn't answer me
but some one told me

that we have to suffer we must be hurt
to know the meaning of it

you must know what pain is
so you can feel the others pain , so you can taste and know the meaning of being happy

and appreciate the good times
and say thanks to GOD every time

i know that alot of things happen things we can't explain
but we are humans we are not supposed to know every thing

that when accidents happen they just happen
don't say how or why just say thanks GOD that we are OK (he said this to me)


but i'm still convinced that every thing happens it happens for a reason
even when some one die he is dieing because his time comes

its his time to leave our world and go to abetter world
where is no hate or pain

i'm in so much pain

I hated my self so much.
I hated my life enough.


I wanna scream saying it is not fair what is happenning to me why
me ?I feel my self in a shock she doesn't accept it she doesn't even wanna talk about it.


I smile while my eyes are full of tears.
Tears hurting and makes me burning.


I feel like someone brought a knife and put it in my heart.
It hurts i'm in so much pain.


Right now i feel like i wanna disappear.
I don't wanna live i hate my self.

I'm running from my self i don't wanna think about it.

I wish if i can forget.

an angel

Iwas sitting alone looking at the sky
talking to the stars.


Suddenly i saw her and then i forgot about the moon
I even forgot where i was.


She was so pretty ,she was smiling
She was like an angel.


She was saying something to me at the beginning i couldn't get it
but after awhile i heard her clearly she was telling me,


(Follow your heart and ask him about the question you needed me to answer
he will tell you and i will be there for you.


At this time i was so happy.
I knew that i'm not alone.


I knew that is a sign telling me that i'm right.

dieing because of you

I live for you but i'm dieing because of you


For me you had been the home i need( to find my rest and peace
you had been my eyes so how i can see


You had been the heart for me
u had been the friend i need


So what i'm i supposed to do without you
Blind is it what i'm i supposed to be


And a murder to kill my heart and bury him because
he is the one who is still in love with you


He(my heart) is the one who is saying
please tell him that i'm still waiting for him
at the same place


Tell me what to do after u took every thing with you (my heart and even my soul


Ifeel like i'm dead along ago

it hurts much more

my eyes are not crying
no not any more cauz

iam out of tears but
myheart is the one who is still

crying but it hurts much more

don't cry over some one

Don't cry over someone who won't cry over you.
I know it is hard not to but it is not the thing to do.


I want you to make sure that there is one for every one
he is not the one for you.


Some day ,some where you are gonna find this one
and he is gonna be the only one you ever wanted.

He is gonna be the every thing you ever dreamed of,
so forget about him and make sure that


He doesn't deserve a tear of your precious eyes.
He is gonna be the one who regret it.

some ideas

It is not hard to sacrifice for a friend but it is hard to find the friend who deserve your sacrifice.

.Poor you if you have a strong memory and bad memories


Some times you feel that you are a person in this world while there is someone who makes you feel that you are the whole world.


If millions of people loves you so i'm with them,

if just one who loves you so it would be me and

if no body loves you it means one thing that i'm dead.


Conscientious is a calm voice is telling you that there is someone looking at you.

You shouldn't say what all you know but you should know what you are saying.

some thoughts

Being strong (means saying

no when your heart sais yes and insist to make you suffer.

Two things in life you can't

change(your past and your real love).

Make sure to get what u want and what u like

or you will be forced to get what u don't like.

moon's light

the most beautiful feeling
is to love and to be loved

to be satisfied with your self
to feel beauty and be grateful to it

to see the moon's light
and forget about the darkness of the night
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is to walk with each other to the end of the road
making our dream true and getting what we always hoped for

the most beautiful feeling is to

find someone to count on ,to depend on

someone who can get you and heal your wound

tears

you keep asking me

about that tears, I 'm trapping about that look in my eyes

i don't know what to say but don't you think that i like being this
don't u think that i had been always like this

i used to have fun i used to be someone else
but what happened to me was so much for me

i had been hurt and this wound is not healed yet
i tried to forget it i tried to get through this but i didn't work


it had been a shock for me to lose the only one i loved the only friend i have ever got

i knew that he loved me too but after awhile he just stopped stopped loving me

after this i couldn't love any one else because he took every thing
since then you can say that i'm alone on my own

this word ...

this word(i love you) is coming

from deep inside from aconfused eyes

this word ( i love you) is written on the walls of my body cells

i love you but no body else

this word (i love you )is running in my blood

you are my universe you are my every

thing

the most beutiful thing is to be in love with you

and to be loved by you

my world

you asked me about my world you said

u wanna know all about it
in my world every body is keep talking and talking no body listen

the truth yesterday becomes alie today
as they having fun in making everything looking sucks


in my world to hurt ,to cheat even to decieve that is what makes you humanbeing but to love,to have feelings to be honest,this can't be


so either you change or you find somewhere else to fit and belong because it hadn't be me i need some one to rescue me

in my world you ask the question but u find no answer
in my world the common question is why and will stay why

in my world you will learn how to bury an how to kill

and after all you know about my world do u still want to join it to be apart of it

do u know him

yeah i loved him and i didn't even know what love is

i loved him and i didn't even know how i loved him

he is that guy do you know him


he is that kind person with such a heart and soul he is that person that u think he is just like the others but he is not(did u know him

he is that person who lives inside my heart behind my ribs and he comes to me infront of me like an angel


i always dream about him .all the times i feel his existence around since i knew him he is always with me doesn't leave me are u still asking who is he

he is ahuman being with eyes not like the other eyes

he has lips but not like the other lips those lips are telling me words (words )i'm hearing for the first time in my life (they are so much alive


he has hands but not like the other hands they are creative hands did u know him yet


u didn't know him and you won't because he lives in my heart and in my mind i'm the only one who knows him no body does

i created love

The whole world is blaming me if i loved him as i'm the one who created love and invented it


They blaming me if i called his name or even mentioned it

This love is so different from anything u can

hear or even read.

If i knew that his love would be some kind of addiction. i wouldn't accept it

If i knew that it was awindy door i wouldn't open it

If i knew that was amatch i wouldn't set its fire or even touch it


His love is me by killing it you are killing me
His love is the air to breathe
he is the sun for me

stations of waiting

When they hurt your feelings and murder your dreams and went away from you and leave you alone on your own

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by there going away they left abig harm in your heart

If the days repeat themselves and they come back again so i'm gonna tell u one thing

Tell them that you forgot about them and go in the other way may be there you will find what you deserve tell them that you cried alot untill u convinced your self by there death

And you don't even have the power to bring them back in your heart alive as they did after they choose to be died .


Tell them by their leaving away they gave u the chance to rediscover u and things around u
and become sure that they aren't the end of he road


Tell them that u closed all the stations of waiting for them
Tell them that there expire in your heart is out and is pulse in your heart doesn't belong to them and is innocent of persons like them

They are just abad memory carrying all the hurt and pain and nothing ever changed and for you they were yesterday and there is no today


Tell them they were ableeding of your blood that healed without leaving ascar or even atrace
Tell them in there absence u miscarried their love and killed them in your heart

Tell them that you realsed them like abird and you shut down all the doors without them and you promised your self that you won't open them unless u find who deserve


Tell them that every thing has its own time and their time for you is over
and u also can bunish them by keeping quiet because sometimes silence has power and asuperpower to say what words can't say

u are so wrong

Every time i got my smile back
you makes me cry

All i want is to be happy is that so much for me?.
You intend doing this( it tells me one thing how much you hated me) but the question is why did you marry me?.

Do u think that i will be always negative like this
that i will always forgive and forget about it?.

Do you think that i'm too weak to make adecision and make you stop ( stop)doing this is that what you think of me?tell me


Because you are so wrong.
All i wanted is to be is agood wife
and have happy life.

But you don't deserve.
someday you are gonna look for me and you won't find me because then i would be

me.

Take it as warn consider it as you want
I'm not afraid any more because i'm over you

along go.

hold my hands

Take off that alphet (alphet of sadness)it is doesn't fit on you either you throw it way )or give it to me to wear it for you.


Seeing you this way it broke my heart it is tearing me apart


Your scilence screams is rocking the whole place.Your scilence screms is contorlling me. I can't even breathe.


At least try me talk to me don't leave me like this i don't deserve this i'm worried about you to death.

Hold my hands and come with me and open your mind and listen to me
do you see?


Do you see the filaments of the night and they way they disappear?Do you see how the sun shines and the mornnig comes around?


Are you seeing what i'm seeing( birds full asleep and they didn't even know what they Are gonna eat and they woke up in the morning and eate and froget about yesterday